Saturday, 16 June 2007

ps: this is for you.



its been quite awhile since we got together now. and im glad to announce, yes, we've survived whatever that we've been through so far(which isnt alot. but hey, they're enough to tell me, yes, youre the someone i'll be able to make it through with if we both try hard enough). and thank you very much, for standing alongside me, not giving up. not walking away. not leaving me behind when i dump you with all my nonsense.



life's been great ever since you came into the picture.

life's been greater after you came into the picture.

life's at its best now that you're in the picture. and no, don't go any soon.



laughters exist everywhere when theres you. durin the busrides. durin the train rides. at home. on the phone. through the webcam. via sms. or even when we aint talking nor communicating. haha. probably bcos you're always doing/saying/whining ridiculous retarded stuffs that really tickle me inside. youre like that biggg sun up there that doesnt take a break at night, constantly brightening up my life. ( seesee. fried egg! ) or mayb you just have alot of potential to be a clown! hahaha! okayokay. :X



and i haven any idea what i'll be now without you. yes, true, i will survive without you. but thats not the point. the point is. i can live without you. but i don't want to live without you. this is what i've told you many times. and i dont care if youre sicked of it. im saying it again. (BLEH)



despite all our differences, all the night quarrells, all the ignoring on my side, all the tears on yours(yes people, im mean. i make people i love cry. condemn me), we made it through. i know i've never been the great one in this r/s, my foul temper, my childishness at times. my insensitivity to your feelings. ( hahaha, to those who already know, yes, i can FEEL you nodding your head becos i know you guys know im a woodblock coming to rs)

but i'll try to do better. to listen clearer. to comprehend faster. to infer more(hopefully correctly. or else...). to know more. to understand more. to be more tolerant. to be more mild tempered.to give in more. to be more mature. to be more pleasant(actually, im already quite pleasant what. right? ) because thats what i wanna do. i wanna do everything that pleases you. i wanna know everything about you. about your friends. about your family. anything(stupid, my girlfriend doesn sell canned drinks okay. nor does the canned drinks taste like her. nor does the content inside possess the same name as her. but hey, maybe she
'll give you the same rush of adrenaline like the canned drinks does aye? haha!) about you. see, its all about you.



throw away all your insecurities. its a guarantee on my side that i wouldnt go astray cos of another party. well bcos, i seriously cant be bothered with any others. what for? they don't even know me. i dont need them. i dont want them. they're just passerby who happen to take a sudden keen interest in me thats probably just gonna last for a couple of days and poof, gone with the wind they'll be. i love my life now. i love my friends, i love my family (this, im tryin really hard. haha. ) and most importantly, i love you. (duhh right? the gist of this post is you? )



and eventhough there isnt any certainty in whatever thats ahead of us, hell with it. i'll be fine as long as youre here with me. yes. thats assurance. thats how sure, how affirm, how determined i can be. but obviously, it take two hands to clap, two party to commit. to devote. to give in. and youre the one in line for this bond to stay strong. last long. run deep. run steady. aye?



once again, thank you for everything.

for being the one who ..

text me everyday to greet me good morning

text me everynite to put me in bed in soft supple sweetness

make me laugh&smile with all your sillyness

make me melt&wanna die because of your high sugar content and endless whines that i've never failed to be defeated by(i've always thought whining to get your way is cheating okay!! xD )

make me cry out loud when you nudge me in the ribs or just poke me in the stomach and giving me sudden tickles-attacks.

make me survive all the hardest times just by being there for me

make me really shock to know that you've got a sister thats being over friendly. haahahaha.

and im proud to say.
i love you.
i'll hate to have to leave you.
i'll hate it even more if you'll have to leave me.
i'll hate it crazy i make you cry through the night again.
i'll hate it crazy crazy if you suffer lonliness bcos of me.
i'll hate it reallyterribly crazy if you feel miserable&lousy cos of me.

see. now you know why there're green slips. and vouchers? haha!

yes.
im proud to call you MY GIRLFRIEND.
no, shes not just my lover. she's my girlfriend.

okay. i know talking so much wont help.
but i just feel like saying so much. cannot is it ? roar.
we'll let time show you my TRUE COLOURS okay ? :))
dont worry. im quite colourful. and i bet, you wont be disappointed at the end. :)))

had guess what. its gonna rain really soon. ha. you know why it rains. and what happens when it rains don't you? goodbye love. TTFN :D


'all that i am. all that i ever was, is here in your perfect eyes.

Tell Her.